Disney Weight Loss Goal: Deadline: October
Monday, January 31, 2011
New Blog!!!
Hi everyone! I just wanted to let you know I've started another blog - not that I would stop this one. But it's focus will be on Wholesome Living. This is an area in our lives that we are focusing on - and I want to blog about it, but this blog doesn't always seem like the appropriate venue. SO I hope you'll come check it out!
Focusing - Part 2
So - I started my last post with certain thoughts in mind, and they didn't quite make it into the post! So let's try this again!
It all started yesterday when we went as a family to a local indoor water park. I've gotten over myself on how I look in a suit - it's really just denial. I actually like my suit - skirt and all - but let's just say - the camera stayed home on purpose.
Two things occurred to me while I was there. 1. I need a new suit. 2. I'm ready to go to Disney.
Let's start with #1. I've been wanting a new suit, mostly because when I do water classes or if I'd want to swim laps - it's pretty dumb with a skirted suit. (And this is NOT an old lady skirted suit... it is pretty nice! I promise!) Anyway - I hate to buy a big suit and then have it be too big. Suits are expensive - at least any that I would consider buying. And I would consider swimming laps - but I'm not sure I'm ready to dedicate my routine to the pool. That's alot of extra hassle I just don't care for. Plus - I noticed it's worn thin right in the front top - not so much that I fell exposed or anything - but enough that this suit has a limited number of uses left. Focus: So I want to start trimming down so I can get a new suit sooner.
#2. It was sooooo nice to be at this indoor water park. I had decided before winter we would spend a day there. Just to get rid of the winter blues that were sure to come. It's always 78 degrees in there and of course you're in a nice themed fun atmosphere! Just puts a person in the mood for their Disney trip! Now I'm not ready to go-go, but it's helping me focus. Focus: I have 8-9 months to actually accomplish something here. I still need to work out my plan for the week - but I've already started with today.
Today's plan: Today I am going to Zumba at noon. This leaves me the morning to accomplish household activities.(which is really my best time mentally to do this.) I drove my daughter to school so I could make a stop at Walmart and find a few key items not at the grocery store. So I checked that off the list. I've been trying to eat really well today - but it's hard when you wake up at 4 am.
All those extra hours in the day - makes you hungry. I had a small bowl of cereal, a piece of toast and a banana. All at different times. And I'm starving! I definitely need to eat something before zumba - so will the kids. So I will try to hold off until my early lunch. I believe I have one more serving of White Chicken Chili left. That would be better than the chicken broccoli alfredo I have, right? Wish I would have figured out the calories for those when I made them. So there's the plan. Spaghetti for dinner with salad. I have alot of veggies I didn't use last week - hopefully most of them are still good.
It all started yesterday when we went as a family to a local indoor water park. I've gotten over myself on how I look in a suit - it's really just denial. I actually like my suit - skirt and all - but let's just say - the camera stayed home on purpose.
Two things occurred to me while I was there. 1. I need a new suit. 2. I'm ready to go to Disney.
Let's start with #1. I've been wanting a new suit, mostly because when I do water classes or if I'd want to swim laps - it's pretty dumb with a skirted suit. (And this is NOT an old lady skirted suit... it is pretty nice! I promise!) Anyway - I hate to buy a big suit and then have it be too big. Suits are expensive - at least any that I would consider buying. And I would consider swimming laps - but I'm not sure I'm ready to dedicate my routine to the pool. That's alot of extra hassle I just don't care for. Plus - I noticed it's worn thin right in the front top - not so much that I fell exposed or anything - but enough that this suit has a limited number of uses left. Focus: So I want to start trimming down so I can get a new suit sooner.
#2. It was sooooo nice to be at this indoor water park. I had decided before winter we would spend a day there. Just to get rid of the winter blues that were sure to come. It's always 78 degrees in there and of course you're in a nice themed fun atmosphere! Just puts a person in the mood for their Disney trip! Now I'm not ready to go-go, but it's helping me focus. Focus: I have 8-9 months to actually accomplish something here. I still need to work out my plan for the week - but I've already started with today.
Today's plan: Today I am going to Zumba at noon. This leaves me the morning to accomplish household activities.(which is really my best time mentally to do this.) I drove my daughter to school so I could make a stop at Walmart and find a few key items not at the grocery store. So I checked that off the list. I've been trying to eat really well today - but it's hard when you wake up at 4 am.
All those extra hours in the day - makes you hungry. I had a small bowl of cereal, a piece of toast and a banana. All at different times. And I'm starving! I definitely need to eat something before zumba - so will the kids. So I will try to hold off until my early lunch. I believe I have one more serving of White Chicken Chili left. That would be better than the chicken broccoli alfredo I have, right? Wish I would have figured out the calories for those when I made them. So there's the plan. Spaghetti for dinner with salad. I have alot of veggies I didn't use last week - hopefully most of them are still good.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Focusing
Well, the past two weeks have been hard. Just personally hard. With death and funerals with sickness and more sickness - I'm ready to move on.
I got sick Tuesday evening. All of Wednesday I was miserably sick. And each day I've gotten better - but I wasn't instantly better. Often nothing sounded good to eat - but I'd be starving and nauseous because I was starving. But certain food just sounded gross.
I did lose some weight - but did I really lose any weight? I'm not sure. I weighed myself this morning - I was 207. A pound lower than before I got sick. But my starting weight was 206.6 - so I'd like to be below that. I did realize in church today that I'm bloated and swollen. My ring was very tight and uncomfortable. And I did notice some of my pants being too tight - but I just figured it was because they were freshly washed or my stomach was upset - so I was uncomfortable.
Anyways - what that tells me is I need to cut back on the salt. I need to get back to raw veggies and healthy choices. I started to eat cookies tonight - and I put it back and got a bowl of cereal. Sometimes- I just don't think about healthier options - I just want a bite size cookie snack.
Tomorrow is a pretty free day for me - so I don't know if I should tackle the house and sanitize everything? get tons of laundry done? There's plenty to do. Or if I should hit the store for the essential diet food/snacks or if I should hit the gym. I guess I have all week pretty open to do any of those things. I should make a plan for going to the gym. And then work around that. I'll post my plan when I have it layed out.
I got sick Tuesday evening. All of Wednesday I was miserably sick. And each day I've gotten better - but I wasn't instantly better. Often nothing sounded good to eat - but I'd be starving and nauseous because I was starving. But certain food just sounded gross.
I did lose some weight - but did I really lose any weight? I'm not sure. I weighed myself this morning - I was 207. A pound lower than before I got sick. But my starting weight was 206.6 - so I'd like to be below that. I did realize in church today that I'm bloated and swollen. My ring was very tight and uncomfortable. And I did notice some of my pants being too tight - but I just figured it was because they were freshly washed or my stomach was upset - so I was uncomfortable.
Anyways - what that tells me is I need to cut back on the salt. I need to get back to raw veggies and healthy choices. I started to eat cookies tonight - and I put it back and got a bowl of cereal. Sometimes- I just don't think about healthier options - I just want a bite size cookie snack.
Tomorrow is a pretty free day for me - so I don't know if I should tackle the house and sanitize everything? get tons of laundry done? There's plenty to do. Or if I should hit the store for the essential diet food/snacks or if I should hit the gym. I guess I have all week pretty open to do any of those things. I should make a plan for going to the gym. And then work around that. I'll post my plan when I have it layed out.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
A New Start
Well - there's nothing like a good stomach bug to kick off your weight loss efforts!!!
Yesterday I was sick - all day. I weighed myself that evening, I did have a little bit to eat and drink by evening. I was at 202.5. Down a good 5 pounds. I'm sure that won't last - but hopefully I won't gain it all back. I had been over eating this past week dealing with my grandpa's death and funeral. But that's done now and I'm ready to get refocused. So soon as my body allows it.
So today I'm going to listen to my body and not over do it. I now get to tend to my husband who got sick the next day. Only 1 of my kids hasn't gotten sick yet. Hopefully it stays that way. It's not fun for anyone.
Yesterday I was sick - all day. I weighed myself that evening, I did have a little bit to eat and drink by evening. I was at 202.5. Down a good 5 pounds. I'm sure that won't last - but hopefully I won't gain it all back. I had been over eating this past week dealing with my grandpa's death and funeral. But that's done now and I'm ready to get refocused. So soon as my body allows it.
So today I'm going to listen to my body and not over do it. I now get to tend to my husband who got sick the next day. Only 1 of my kids hasn't gotten sick yet. Hopefully it stays that way. It's not fun for anyone.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Weekend Excuses
So - I am FULL of excuses today. I mean this weekend. This week actually. I totally jumped off plan. In fact, I gave myself permission. Aren't I special?!
Do you want the list? I don't think you actually do. I hate excuses. But I'm someone that often makes excuses. But even as I say them or believe in them - all I hear is how lame they are and how lame I am for leaning on these excuses.
But despite all that, I just don't know that I'm ready to get on track.
--Deep Breath--
"Okay - suck it up Amy, and just make the right choices. You aren't going to get anywhere relying on excuses."
I really want to lose this weight before Disney in October. I don't want to be fat at Disney. I've done that before. I want to enjoy the trip to the fullest. Plus I'll be alot more comfortable in a van with 8 people for two days if I'm 50 pounds lighter.
So, tonight I will go to bed at a decent hour. I may even attempt to exercise in the morning. I have meals planned for the week. I just have to make them. And starting Wednesday - I can hopefully make it back to the gym.
Do you want the list? I don't think you actually do. I hate excuses. But I'm someone that often makes excuses. But even as I say them or believe in them - all I hear is how lame they are and how lame I am for leaning on these excuses.
But despite all that, I just don't know that I'm ready to get on track.
--Deep Breath--
"Okay - suck it up Amy, and just make the right choices. You aren't going to get anywhere relying on excuses."
I really want to lose this weight before Disney in October. I don't want to be fat at Disney. I've done that before. I want to enjoy the trip to the fullest. Plus I'll be alot more comfortable in a van with 8 people for two days if I'm 50 pounds lighter.
So, tonight I will go to bed at a decent hour. I may even attempt to exercise in the morning. I have meals planned for the week. I just have to make them. And starting Wednesday - I can hopefully make it back to the gym.
Friday, January 21, 2011
A Mess
My desk is a mess. My kitchen is a mess. My hair is a mess. My eating is a mess.
I feel - well, I feel a mess.
I was gathering focus and purpose. A redirection for the new year. It was nice to have focus and purpose. To feel on track in many personal areas of my life. And as I described in my previous post - I am distracted. And rightly so. My grandfather passed away today. He is at peace. But with his peace - it stirs unrest in the living. Isn't it so? Because all of a sudden we are faced with our own immortality.
But I am a Christian. A born again christian. I have hope. I know where he is with certainty and so I don't need to grieve so dismally. And maybe I'm not. But still, here I am - being very philosophical when I rarely am. And actually - I think I am looking at immorality different than I ever have before. Although I am sad - I'm not as doom and gloom as I have been. I'm not playing the what if game (although now that I brought it up - what a great idea before bed!- sarcasm if you didn't notice it dripping...) Anyway - I think at this point I'm more interested in knowing my grandfather better - because there's so much of his life before I started paying attention. I'm also more interested in making the most of my life. ~But also in respect of my walk with God. Do I walk with purpose? Do I walk with His purpose? I don't feel like I do. Thank goodness I'm a mother and credited with this ever so "godly" purpose of raising godly children. Um - yeah, after I get of FB, right? (again, sarcasm. If you knew me, I wouldn't point this out so much an annoy the readers... sorry.)
So, I suppose I am facing my immortality and wondering what my purpose is. I don't need death to play this conversation in my head. I've been beating myself up about this for years. I know God has a plan for me - and I know I've done some good by it... walked with him and followed him. But day to day as a parent? I'm not so sure. It's not so easy to recognize. Although it's very easy to point out my selfish desires. Sometimes their hard to see - but try to take them away - and you'll see them.
So what now? I am a mess. I will probably continue to be a mess for the next week. And that's okay. Although I really hope I don't lose my motivation and the direction I had last week. I will take this time to focus more on my spiritual life. It is one of my priorities. And I'd like to know more about where my grandfather is. But I'm not worried about the future - or worried about all the what ifs. I'm excited to be more in-tune with God's plan for my life. And if I am more in-tune with that, then I guess I won't be such a mess after all.
I feel - well, I feel a mess.
I was gathering focus and purpose. A redirection for the new year. It was nice to have focus and purpose. To feel on track in many personal areas of my life. And as I described in my previous post - I am distracted. And rightly so. My grandfather passed away today. He is at peace. But with his peace - it stirs unrest in the living. Isn't it so? Because all of a sudden we are faced with our own immortality.
But I am a Christian. A born again christian. I have hope. I know where he is with certainty and so I don't need to grieve so dismally. And maybe I'm not. But still, here I am - being very philosophical when I rarely am. And actually - I think I am looking at immorality different than I ever have before. Although I am sad - I'm not as doom and gloom as I have been. I'm not playing the what if game (although now that I brought it up - what a great idea before bed!- sarcasm if you didn't notice it dripping...) Anyway - I think at this point I'm more interested in knowing my grandfather better - because there's so much of his life before I started paying attention. I'm also more interested in making the most of my life. ~But also in respect of my walk with God. Do I walk with purpose? Do I walk with His purpose? I don't feel like I do. Thank goodness I'm a mother and credited with this ever so "godly" purpose of raising godly children. Um - yeah, after I get of FB, right? (again, sarcasm. If you knew me, I wouldn't point this out so much an annoy the readers... sorry.)
So, I suppose I am facing my immortality and wondering what my purpose is. I don't need death to play this conversation in my head. I've been beating myself up about this for years. I know God has a plan for me - and I know I've done some good by it... walked with him and followed him. But day to day as a parent? I'm not so sure. It's not so easy to recognize. Although it's very easy to point out my selfish desires. Sometimes their hard to see - but try to take them away - and you'll see them.
So what now? I am a mess. I will probably continue to be a mess for the next week. And that's okay. Although I really hope I don't lose my motivation and the direction I had last week. I will take this time to focus more on my spiritual life. It is one of my priorities. And I'd like to know more about where my grandfather is. But I'm not worried about the future - or worried about all the what ifs. I'm excited to be more in-tune with God's plan for my life. And if I am more in-tune with that, then I guess I won't be such a mess after all.
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Dieting
Well, I must say - this whole dieting thing is going really well for me! I haven't really changed much, I'm just actually counting calories now so I don't go over my allotment for the day. But I've been eating pizza and brownies(not alot) and just keeping it within my calories.
And it shows. I weighed myself again today - and now I'm down a full pound, in three days! So I'm hoping I don't totally mess it up this weekend and I can lose a good 2 pounds this week! I don't really know when my WI day is, I wanted it to be Friday - but I think I took an accurate measurement Sunday. and I was back at the normal 206.6. Well, wait. That means I've lost 1.6lbs because I'm at 205.0 today!!! Whoo HOoo!
This morning was a bit hard for me, I must say. I went to the grocery store for a few items. Well, I'm proud to say I successfully avoided the candy at checkout AND I didn't even look at the fast food on the way home. But it definitely crossed my mind. The normal me would have stopped for something somewhere. Especially since I only had 1 kid with me and I wouldn't have to share. But I knew that would totally blow my calories for the day. And I'm down. I want to keep going. (I also lied to myself and told myself all the sinful treats/lunch I could have at home... which I hopefully will avoid. But I needed to know I had an out if I was desperate.)
Now, what I want to do is go to the gym and run tonight - stay on track with my C25K program. But tonight is also the church Ladies Night - and it sounds like it's going to be fun, and most of my friends will be there. I'm kinda torn right now. Here's another example of feeling obligated to do something when I'd rather do something else. I'm sure I'd have more fun at church - but I just kinda want to do my own thing at the same time. My extrovert juices don't seem to be flowing so much for me right now. Most likely because of my grandpa.
And it shows. I weighed myself again today - and now I'm down a full pound, in three days! So I'm hoping I don't totally mess it up this weekend and I can lose a good 2 pounds this week! I don't really know when my WI day is, I wanted it to be Friday - but I think I took an accurate measurement Sunday. and I was back at the normal 206.6. Well, wait. That means I've lost 1.6lbs because I'm at 205.0 today!!! Whoo HOoo!
This morning was a bit hard for me, I must say. I went to the grocery store for a few items. Well, I'm proud to say I successfully avoided the candy at checkout AND I didn't even look at the fast food on the way home. But it definitely crossed my mind. The normal me would have stopped for something somewhere. Especially since I only had 1 kid with me and I wouldn't have to share. But I knew that would totally blow my calories for the day. And I'm down. I want to keep going. (I also lied to myself and told myself all the sinful treats/lunch I could have at home... which I hopefully will avoid. But I needed to know I had an out if I was desperate.)
Now, what I want to do is go to the gym and run tonight - stay on track with my C25K program. But tonight is also the church Ladies Night - and it sounds like it's going to be fun, and most of my friends will be there. I'm kinda torn right now. Here's another example of feeling obligated to do something when I'd rather do something else. I'm sure I'd have more fun at church - but I just kinda want to do my own thing at the same time. My extrovert juices don't seem to be flowing so much for me right now. Most likely because of my grandpa.
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