Goals!!!!!

Okay - so I've been derailed from the 6 week challenge - I'm not out of the game.. just let my one day of rest turn into three! But, to be fair, my babe was sick and TOM just showed up! (and the cookies are just about gone... I think I'll put them in the freezer before I head off to bed!)

So here's the goal - and it fits into the 6 week challenge nicely.

My original goal was to be DONE with this weight loss phase of life before/by the time I turned 30. Well, then I got pregnant with Ryan(such a sweetie!!!) ~ so that wasn't very possible. I suppose I could have eaten healthy during that time, not gained as much weight and got serious those 4 months before I turned 30(exactly 1 year ago...) I did loose 10 pounds, but after our trip to Disney - I just never got back on the motivation train. Till the new year. I find that the start of fall(school year) and New Years is the best time for me to loose weight. I have the most motivation and determination(at least for a while) to loose weight. Probably true for most people.

Well I just was reading a friendly blog that reminded me that my goal is to have this be a short phase of my life!!! I don't want to diet forever! I don't want to be picking at myself - guilty and unhappy because I fall into temptation again and again. I have one thing that works well for me. I can maintain my weight. Not sure I can maintain my weight at 140lbs - but no matter what my weight has been, I've usually maintained it pretty well. It's pregnancy or vacations that get it off rail and then I either step it up to loose the holiday weight - or it becomes part of me. Preggo weight is the worst!!!!!

So here's where I'm at: 187 pounds(although I'm supposed to weigh in tomorrow - not looking forward to that!)

Where I want to be: 140 lbs (which might actually be 130 on my scale- my scale is 9-10 lbs lower than WW or the Dr scale...)

140 might be low for me. Especially with muscle mass - I've never really has muscle mass before - and my lowest adult weight was 155. Looking at those pics now - I was sooooo skinny!!!! But I thought I was horribly fat!

I wish my face was that skinny! Sad when you want your face to be skinny.

Anyways - because 155 was my lowest adult weight - I think I need to be int he 140's to feel I achieved my real goal. And I'm afraid if it's not the low 140's then I'll just be at 155 at the first picnic or birthday or holiday.

So, what does this mean to me? Well, I need to loose 47 pounds(57?) yikes! And It would be great to loose it by my birthday in January. Which is just cruel. Who looses weight right at the holiday? That gives me 4 months - with the last month being an obstacle course of issues. That's like 12 pounds a month!!!! Whoa - I'm so not going to make that goal!!!!

Hmm... I'll have ot think on this a bit more. Maybe If I just get to the 155 goal by my birthday - loose ALL the baby weight - that would still be an awesome goal. So that would be 32-42 pounds, about 8-10 pounds a month. Much better! Still a great challenge, but much better!

I think if I really apply myself over the next two weeks, I could start this challenge off really well. And once you start loosing weight - it's easier to stay motivated and keep your body burning and working int hat direction(or at least - that's what my mom always told me!)

So what am I going to do?

1. Put the cookies in the freezer!!! (I made homemade - organic cookies!!! - so I wouldn't have to eat processed snacks...)

2. Plan to track my food. I'm not sure if this will be with points or calories. I'd like to do calories, but I have a WW scale - and that tells me points, very handy. And I'm not used to figuring out calories.

3. Stick to the challenge plan of cardio and strength every other day. So tomorrow, that means I have to get up early and workout in the basement. Ryan is still to sick to allow me to go to the gym. I think he's getting better though.

4. Stock food with whole healthy foods - and EAT THEM! Someone at church offered up fresh peaches - as much as you want. I'm going to call her - maybe head over there tomorrow and raid her garden! See what wisdom I can glean from her. Plus I need to make lunch and dinner menues. I think I have enough meat in the fridge to come up with some good ideas.(although we've actually been eating some meat free meals!!!)

5. Drink lots of water!!! I'm afraid of returning kidney stones!!!! I need to do this anyways.

Well, I think that's about it. I should go get some shut ueye - and put the cookies away - so I won't be tempted again tomorrow! I REALLY want to do this - and I'm thankful for this redirection in my life. I've been so torn lately with my priorities - or rather not knowing what they should be. And I want to do this and be done with it. I don't want to dissapoint myself again. I do need to figureout the rest of my priorities and how to bring them to the forefront again. (like family, children, and God). And that will happen. I just need more time to think on those things. There's no clear plan of attack. Not yet - my heads a little fuzzy still(darn thyroid!)

Feeling Good - Making Progress!!

I'm not sure why I'm motivated - I guess I'm bouncing back well from TOM. I've definitly had some set backs this week - as it's strawberry season and I've eaten more than my share of sweetened desserts! But - tis the season - right? I LOVE strawberry season!!! LOVE IT!

Anyways - I wentt o my Total Body class today - I've not been in over a month. Sometimes it's a Dr appt - I was out of town two weeks - gettign ready to go camping on week - just wanted to sleep in another day... life just happens on Friday - what can I say??? Well, I was in today - and I didn't have the front mirror- but had one to my side. I know clothes can definitely make a difference, and I was wearing "cute" clothes - but I looked pretty good!!!! My mom has said that after you loose a bit a weight - it evens itself out. For example - you might initially loose weight up top - but later it'll even itself out. I think that's what happened, because I haven't lost much since I had been in class last... and I was still looking flabby then. I thought I looked pretty good today - and I could see the muscle in my arms!!! I've been working on my arms a bit - but not with very much purpose. And I've kinda been bummed that my arms still look fat. But that's my fault - I wans't too worried - just wanted a different look. We can still dream and wish even if we dont' take the actions to get there - right? So anyways - I was wondering how that muscle got there - since I wasn't doing much. Must be the occasional boot camp and 300 push ups these crazy classes make me do from time to time.

I had such a great class today!

I really love the Total Body class- because it pushes me - and works those ugly areas(like thighs!!!) but I can still go to the gym tomorrow. Boot camp and kickboxing are awesome - because they're hard and get you results quickly - but oh my!!! I can't do too much for the next week - least of all run!!!

So I've been stepping on my home scale - I'm getting close to my pre-Ryan weight. Lovign that!! It's motivating me because I could get down there in just two weeks if I try and really stay on track. That would be another 5 pounds lost! Although technically I need to loose 10 pounds to be the real pre-Ryan weight. I think I either got lazy or it was the pregnancy itself - and I put on 5 pounds. Then I found out I was preggo. But I don't care- I'll start with the 5 pounds - then work towrads the next 5. It's more motivaing to me to look at my own scale - because I know those numbers... And those speak more to me that the WW numbers. At WW - it's 10 pounds higher! So at WW I'm at 195ish - but at home, I'm about to fall below 185! It seems like I've been in the 190's at WW for a long time(because I have!!!) and it seems like I will always be there. Which gives me no motivation. But it is the true number - not my scale. So when I do get the WW scale down to some low numbers - it will mean alot more to me!

This is the first time that I actually feel like I can loose some weight over the summer. I've even been eating salads for lunch!!! The world has turned upside down!!!! I am not a salad person - although I am learning to like a variety of dressings. And I'm finding some ways to make the salads tastier. If I workout - I'm definitly motvated to eat healthy.

I'm on track today - looks liek I might be down a pound - I just need to not screw it up this weekend. My obstacles: 1. Dinner out tonight. 2. Graduation party tomorrow 3. Possible lunch out with a friend on Sunday. Whew!!! What's a girl to do?!?! BUT I am plannign on going to the gym tomorrow - and right now I am very low in points because I had that salad for lunch.

Happily Surprised

So apparently I like to use the emotion as the title to my posts.

Soo... it's very wierd to be loosing weight consistantly!!!!!! I'm SEEING differences - little things everyday!!!! And Then I realized something today - I got on the scale, and I'm down 3.5 pounds since my last WI (awesome!!) And that means I'm less than 10 pounds away from my pre-Ryan baby weight!!!!!

Can you tell I'm excited?!?!?!

Wow. I am just in shock! It's all to WW (and myself!!) for eating better and making this more of a lifestyle so I will be consistant. I've never lost weight slowly but so consistantly. And it's not really the same weight each week, I actually feel stalled alot, but I think it's my WI day and I think the big thing is - I'm not giving up. I have a great support system and yah know what - it might only be .6 pounds, but added up - it's alot, infact, it pushed me over the edge! I'm getting somewhere - and I'm not going to stop just because I ate too much over the weekend. And I'm close to the prebaby weight goal - well, the first one anyways!!! but I'm not goign to stop just because it's summer. I'm finding it easier to workout at home in the mornings - so that's a real option now. Not my preferred option, but a real one.

well, I shoudl go to bed. It's funny, I don't always feel thiner, but I'm seeing other signs, like close being looser, my image looking smaller - I can see the difference - even if I don't always feel it.