March Goals and Day 3 of No Cookies...

My march goals are actually a combination of February and March. I can't do this every month because it would be impossible for me to actually reach these goals. This month is kind of a test to see how serious I am about losing the weight and reaching my Disney goal. Even as I drop a few pounds - it seems unreal that I would actually get back to my prepregnancy weight(please don't ask which pregnancy!). But I want it - I want it bad. So my monthly goal is to lose 5 pounds a month. I horribly failed in February - so it is possible to lose 10 in March. I've seen several people in the blogosphere lose 10 in February, so it's definitely possible for March! So let's lay out the numbers - I'd like to be 196/3 by the end of March, or April 1st which will be my WI day. Sounds good to me!

Anyways - that's my goal. I'm very excited about this week's WI because I've been doing great. I started out poorly this weekend, but I seem to have recovered and am gaining speed. As you noticed in my title - it's day 3 of no cookies. And we're not just talking cookies here - we're talking snacks. This is such a huge deal for me! I was having trouble getting to dinner without breaking down into cookie overload. Then in the evening I would always be snacking too. Always over my calories for each day. It was a habit/trend I couldn't seem to break.

I wish I could tell you how I've managed... but I don't really know. I have been exercising at night while we watch TV, and I know that's helped alot. It doesn't seem right to just sit and veg anymore, so I don't. I haven't measured myself either, but I think I'm toning up some flab. I put on some yoga-type pants and they weren't as embarrassing as I remember.

Today I'm meeting friends for Zumba and then this evening I'm meeting friends and trying my first spin class! I've always wanted to try one, but I think it's going to kill me... I'm definitely worried - especially since I have another workout planned for the day. I do have a pasta dinner planned - so I'm hoping that will help give me energy for the workout.

New Year

I bet there is alot of blogging going on about the new year!!! I'm actually pretty excited to have a written record of my New Year's Resolutions. And I've been particularly productive today - so I feel like I can accomplish alot. So I'm writing out my resolutions!

Weight Loss:
I'm very hesitant to put a goal for weighloss this year. Last year I stepping up the exercise routine - and actually had a routine and joined WW. I was only part of WW for 16 weeks and lost 16 pounds. But yah know what - that's pretty much all the weight I lost for the whole year!!! Obviously food tracking is majorly important to my weightloss goals. But I hate tracking. It's too much work. Blah!

So - what are my weight loss goals? I'm not really sure. All I know is I want to lose weight. and I want to be successful. I'm working with my husband in picking a half marathon towards the end of the year. So it's my goal to train for a half marathon. And along the way - I know I'll lose weight. Right?

I got a new digital scale for Christmas. So tomorrow, I'll read the direction book for it(because it tells you more things like body fat and stuff like that.) So tomorrow I will weigh in for the first time in a long time. I think I will make Friday's my WI day though. And I will make small goals to reach after that. I just can't look at the big picture of a year and say I want to loose 60 pounds in 12 months. That's too big for me.

Spiritually:
I'm a born again Christian. I won't go into the details, but I've definitely let things fall out of perspective. So My goal is to make my relationship with God a priority. That starts with reading my bible and praying more regularly. And actually studying what I'm reading and learning about at church. This is seems do-able and something I've been working on anyways. I just need to be more intentional about it. And so I will.

Organization:
I am so disorganized. I think part of it(excuses.... ) is that my thyroid is out of wack, and so mentally I'm not as sharp. I'm naturally not an organized person anyways - but forgetting everything doesn't help either.
I have several areas I need to organize in my life. The first is my business. If you didn't know, I'm an independent consultant for BeautiControl. I love it! I do in-home spa parties... but the paperwork is way behind. I need to get my taxes in order ASAP so I don't fall behind on next year as well. And I need to keep my desk cleaned off. That would be awesome.
Which leads me to the next thing. I want to declutter the house. I know I shouldn't "compete with the Jones'" BUT - it seems like our house is a lot more "lived in" than most of our friends. And some of the "stuff" we have is stuff we acquired in college or early marriage. We don't care about it. It's just junk really. We've already started this - but there's definitely some more areas that need work.

That's all I can think of right now. I have some current priotities in my life that I want to continue like Clean healthy living of "real food." I got a breadmaker to help me in this process! Keeping family and health high on the priority list.

Goals!!!!!

Okay - so I've been derailed from the 6 week challenge - I'm not out of the game.. just let my one day of rest turn into three! But, to be fair, my babe was sick and TOM just showed up! (and the cookies are just about gone... I think I'll put them in the freezer before I head off to bed!)

So here's the goal - and it fits into the 6 week challenge nicely.

My original goal was to be DONE with this weight loss phase of life before/by the time I turned 30. Well, then I got pregnant with Ryan(such a sweetie!!!) ~ so that wasn't very possible. I suppose I could have eaten healthy during that time, not gained as much weight and got serious those 4 months before I turned 30(exactly 1 year ago...) I did loose 10 pounds, but after our trip to Disney - I just never got back on the motivation train. Till the new year. I find that the start of fall(school year) and New Years is the best time for me to loose weight. I have the most motivation and determination(at least for a while) to loose weight. Probably true for most people.

Well I just was reading a friendly blog that reminded me that my goal is to have this be a short phase of my life!!! I don't want to diet forever! I don't want to be picking at myself - guilty and unhappy because I fall into temptation again and again. I have one thing that works well for me. I can maintain my weight. Not sure I can maintain my weight at 140lbs - but no matter what my weight has been, I've usually maintained it pretty well. It's pregnancy or vacations that get it off rail and then I either step it up to loose the holiday weight - or it becomes part of me. Preggo weight is the worst!!!!!

So here's where I'm at: 187 pounds(although I'm supposed to weigh in tomorrow - not looking forward to that!)

Where I want to be: 140 lbs (which might actually be 130 on my scale- my scale is 9-10 lbs lower than WW or the Dr scale...)

140 might be low for me. Especially with muscle mass - I've never really has muscle mass before - and my lowest adult weight was 155. Looking at those pics now - I was sooooo skinny!!!! But I thought I was horribly fat!

I wish my face was that skinny! Sad when you want your face to be skinny.

Anyways - because 155 was my lowest adult weight - I think I need to be int he 140's to feel I achieved my real goal. And I'm afraid if it's not the low 140's then I'll just be at 155 at the first picnic or birthday or holiday.

So, what does this mean to me? Well, I need to loose 47 pounds(57?) yikes! And It would be great to loose it by my birthday in January. Which is just cruel. Who looses weight right at the holiday? That gives me 4 months - with the last month being an obstacle course of issues. That's like 12 pounds a month!!!! Whoa - I'm so not going to make that goal!!!!

Hmm... I'll have ot think on this a bit more. Maybe If I just get to the 155 goal by my birthday - loose ALL the baby weight - that would still be an awesome goal. So that would be 32-42 pounds, about 8-10 pounds a month. Much better! Still a great challenge, but much better!

I think if I really apply myself over the next two weeks, I could start this challenge off really well. And once you start loosing weight - it's easier to stay motivated and keep your body burning and working int hat direction(or at least - that's what my mom always told me!)

So what am I going to do?

1. Put the cookies in the freezer!!! (I made homemade - organic cookies!!! - so I wouldn't have to eat processed snacks...)

2. Plan to track my food. I'm not sure if this will be with points or calories. I'd like to do calories, but I have a WW scale - and that tells me points, very handy. And I'm not used to figuring out calories.

3. Stick to the challenge plan of cardio and strength every other day. So tomorrow, that means I have to get up early and workout in the basement. Ryan is still to sick to allow me to go to the gym. I think he's getting better though.

4. Stock food with whole healthy foods - and EAT THEM! Someone at church offered up fresh peaches - as much as you want. I'm going to call her - maybe head over there tomorrow and raid her garden! See what wisdom I can glean from her. Plus I need to make lunch and dinner menues. I think I have enough meat in the fridge to come up with some good ideas.(although we've actually been eating some meat free meals!!!)

5. Drink lots of water!!! I'm afraid of returning kidney stones!!!! I need to do this anyways.

Well, I think that's about it. I should go get some shut ueye - and put the cookies away - so I won't be tempted again tomorrow! I REALLY want to do this - and I'm thankful for this redirection in my life. I've been so torn lately with my priorities - or rather not knowing what they should be. And I want to do this and be done with it. I don't want to dissapoint myself again. I do need to figureout the rest of my priorities and how to bring them to the forefront again. (like family, children, and God). And that will happen. I just need more time to think on those things. There's no clear plan of attack. Not yet - my heads a little fuzzy still(darn thyroid!)

Happily Surprised

So apparently I like to use the emotion as the title to my posts.

Soo... it's very wierd to be loosing weight consistantly!!!!!! I'm SEEING differences - little things everyday!!!! And Then I realized something today - I got on the scale, and I'm down 3.5 pounds since my last WI (awesome!!) And that means I'm less than 10 pounds away from my pre-Ryan baby weight!!!!!

Can you tell I'm excited?!?!?!

Wow. I am just in shock! It's all to WW (and myself!!) for eating better and making this more of a lifestyle so I will be consistant. I've never lost weight slowly but so consistantly. And it's not really the same weight each week, I actually feel stalled alot, but I think it's my WI day and I think the big thing is - I'm not giving up. I have a great support system and yah know what - it might only be .6 pounds, but added up - it's alot, infact, it pushed me over the edge! I'm getting somewhere - and I'm not going to stop just because I ate too much over the weekend. And I'm close to the prebaby weight goal - well, the first one anyways!!! but I'm not goign to stop just because it's summer. I'm finding it easier to workout at home in the mornings - so that's a real option now. Not my preferred option, but a real one.

well, I shoudl go to bed. It's funny, I don't always feel thiner, but I'm seeing other signs, like close being looser, my image looking smaller - I can see the difference - even if I don't always feel it.

Goals

Okay - I had lots of thoughts today - so I can't forget to write them down!!!

So, mentally I'm all over the place. (insert joke here!)
In one moment I'm ready to give up and put a few pounds on. The next moment I'm ready to take charge and I can't wait to shead this fat from my body! I'm still struggling with the knowledge that I won't be making my goals before vacation - it's just a bit too lofty. But I shoudln't give up.

So here's my new goals - they're not about numbers - it's about physical accomplishments. I bought a new pair of capris - size 14. I really like them, but they're a bit snug - little bit of muffin top included in these pants, but otherwise they're great! They flatter me, I like how they fit at the wasit - just a bit snug! So, I'd like for those to be just right, or a touch loose. I want my stomach to be flatter. I know it's not crunches alone, so I'm keeping up eveything, but I'm not goign to neglect the ab work!!!! Also - I have to say good buy to my favorite jeans - the slipt in the washer - and I don't think they're repairable. They could be, but it'd be a risk to wear them in public! Wish is sad because they're pretty new - just bought this winter - and they were nice, certainly my best pair of pants right now - although they were getting pretty baggy - so I wouldn't be able to wear them long anyways. So now I have to wear the capris. and Hopefully fit into my size 14 pants! They 'fit' but and not as stretchy, so not nearly as comfortable at the 14 capris I have. It'd be nice if those fit for the trip too!!!!

Well, I shoudl get to bed, I didn't sleep much last night... and I want to have energy for Zumba tomorrow!